A Swing and a Miss
Well, I am not really what you would call 'back in the swing' of things yet. I'm probably completely adjusted to the time as I have been home for a week now but still not really going to bed or to sleep anyway until 2 a.m. or so. It doesn't help that Eddie has decided to stay on Aussie time and goes to sleep even later than I do! O.K. - he hasn't really decided to stay on Australian time but he seems to enjoy staying up 'til 4 and waking up at 1 in the afternoon. Luckily, the weather here has been brutally hot and humid - mid 90's (or roughly 32 for you celcius types) and upwards of 85%-100% humidity so he's getting frustrated by being so hot in the morning and not really being able to sleep well.
Anyway, all of that is actually quite minor. I'm just not really adjusting well to being back yet - outside of the family, I don't even feel like talking to anyone, and for those who know me - this is a strange thing.
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I've typed and re-typed text here at least a dozen times, deciding not to make public, details and feelings about those details, but it's safe enough to say that I'm still trying to, in my mind, make some sense out of the many situations that transpired there. Kind of go between being pissed, to "how could this happen", to despondent.
Thank God for Karen and the kids.
Anyway, all of that is actually quite minor. I'm just not really adjusting well to being back yet - outside of the family, I don't even feel like talking to anyone, and for those who know me - this is a strange thing.
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I've typed and re-typed text here at least a dozen times, deciding not to make public, details and feelings about those details, but it's safe enough to say that I'm still trying to, in my mind, make some sense out of the many situations that transpired there. Kind of go between being pissed, to "how could this happen", to despondent.
Thank God for Karen and the kids.
posted by Ed | 12:40 AM
5 Comments:
I'm sure Eddie loves that! The sleep schedule actually sounds fine to me as well! :)
The weather here in Japan is awful too...it's on average 33-35 degrees in the afternoon, which makes me happy that I am inside. It's hard to sleep at night though (as the black circles under my eyes can attest).
I competely understand your feelings about things in Australia. Hope you can work it out and come to terms with things.
See you, Karen and the kids soon!!!!
Hang in there Ed. I know going home can be an adjustment in and of itself sometimes. I also know that you were dealt a, wait, several bad hands while you were here and we all wish we could have fixed all of that for you. We're pulling for you Ed!
Hey now, I've never heard you talk like this before! Then again, you never had to deal with this kind of s@*t before! Just keep in mind that all of us know you got a raw deal and whatever we can do to cheer you up we will!!! Hang in there buddy!
OK, I think I missed something but it sounds like whatever it was, it really sucked. Hope it gets worked out, or at least you can come to terms with it for yourself.
Hey gang, thanks for all the support - it really does help and mean alot. Before this gets out of hand, (I had to delete a bit of a nasty message from someone who filed under anonymous today), I had a WONDERFUL time in Australia. It is really an amazing place full of great people that I would definitely go back to many times given the opportunity! That doesn't negate the many "negatives", but I am chalking those up to 'learning experiences' and moving on. No worries Sharon - I love it down under!
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